A journal entry
Ok, ok. I know I'm supposed to be working right now. That's the bad thing about working with computers, I guess. The fact that diversion is just an alt-tab away. Still, I realized that I haven't posted in a while. Not that anyone reads this stuff... Anyway, there are a few thoughts I wanted to get out. Not sure where this will take me, but...
The Move
First, I've undertaken a major life change: I've moved in with Jess. As far as moves go, it went well, I guess. The weekend was a complete disaster. Or, I guess I shouldn't say it was a complete disaster. It just didn't go as smoothly as I'd hoped.
It's a pretty scary step for me. See, I just got out of a very bad relationship. When I say very bad, I mean very very bad. I won't say I was an angel, nor will I say my Ex was the devil. What I will say is that we were simply not meant to be together. In hindsight, it was obvious from the beginning. I just didn't see it.
It took a very long time for me to come to my senses, and stand up for myself. To decide that I should take life by the horns. Jess is completely amazing, and we get along famously. And that's the nature of the fear. I'm worried that living together will drive us apart. Or that we'll discover we don't get along as well as we should. They're silly fears, I know. After all, we practically lived together without realizing it a few months ago.
I guess it comes down to a fear of change. I'm the first that will tell you that change is inevitable. Time and tide, and all that stuff. But I am changing my life. I believe it to be for the better. I'm also changing the lives of those around me. Again, I believe for the better.
As they say, only time will tell. I think it's a Good Thing.
Work
Work has been interesting of late. As many people will tell you, I'm a computer junkie. Well, now I'm in a real computer junkie job, and I'm loving it. Combined with my divorce, my relationship with Jess, and some other things, I'm in the first stages of forming a new life.
My one thought here is that I'm doing what I really love to do. The money really is secondary. I cannot stress enough to anyone reading this how important that concept is. If you are truly doing what you enjoy, the money will follow. Life is way too short to be spending it doing something you absolutely hate.
Oh Well
I guess that's about it for now. I have some more thoughts, but haven't really collected them yet.
The Move
First, I've undertaken a major life change: I've moved in with Jess. As far as moves go, it went well, I guess. The weekend was a complete disaster. Or, I guess I shouldn't say it was a complete disaster. It just didn't go as smoothly as I'd hoped.
It's a pretty scary step for me. See, I just got out of a very bad relationship. When I say very bad, I mean very very bad. I won't say I was an angel, nor will I say my Ex was the devil. What I will say is that we were simply not meant to be together. In hindsight, it was obvious from the beginning. I just didn't see it.
It took a very long time for me to come to my senses, and stand up for myself. To decide that I should take life by the horns. Jess is completely amazing, and we get along famously. And that's the nature of the fear. I'm worried that living together will drive us apart. Or that we'll discover we don't get along as well as we should. They're silly fears, I know. After all, we practically lived together without realizing it a few months ago.
I guess it comes down to a fear of change. I'm the first that will tell you that change is inevitable. Time and tide, and all that stuff. But I am changing my life. I believe it to be for the better. I'm also changing the lives of those around me. Again, I believe for the better.
As they say, only time will tell. I think it's a Good Thing.
Work
Work has been interesting of late. As many people will tell you, I'm a computer junkie. Well, now I'm in a real computer junkie job, and I'm loving it. Combined with my divorce, my relationship with Jess, and some other things, I'm in the first stages of forming a new life.
My one thought here is that I'm doing what I really love to do. The money really is secondary. I cannot stress enough to anyone reading this how important that concept is. If you are truly doing what you enjoy, the money will follow. Life is way too short to be spending it doing something you absolutely hate.
Oh Well
I guess that's about it for now. I have some more thoughts, but haven't really collected them yet.
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